So, here it is! I've finally started a blog. It's been heavy on my heart for sometime. I've thought about it, fought back the urge to do it, & that thought keeps coming back.
You see, for a long while I've prayed & thought about what my purpose on this Earth is. Probably like so many. Right? But, I just can't figure it out. I know one day God's purpose for me will hit me like a ton a bricks & I'll open my eyes & say....Ahh! Isn't that how's it's supposed to happen?? The truth is...I've gotta search, I've gotta pray, & I have got to serve our very mighty God.
I wanted to start this blog, not only to document my ACP's life....all that she does & says, but to write down my thoughts about life, faith, & experiences.
That sweet baby girl of mine is 5 1/2 years old! How in the world does that happen? Wasn't it just yesterday I was crying like a big baby because I was scared to death of labor? Wasn't it just yesterday that I got to hold get for the first time? Watch my husband completely fall in love with this tiny human? Wasn't it just yesterday that I was watching her take her first steps? Nope...time has flown. Time has literally slipped away from me - she is 1/2 way through Kindergarten & loosing her baby teeth.
This totally can't be happening!
I have so many memories that I have packed into this "crazy" brain of mine....but I have failed to write them down. This blog is for ACP - because if - something happens to me - I want her to have a place to go - that will always be available - to know how much we love her, how much we adore her, & how much she has taught US about life! I totally rocked out that baby book of hers for the first 12 months of her life - I mean, every month on the 9th her daddy & I would sit down & write & document in that book like a champ - and since, I've just filed stuff in there with no explanation. Does that being on my to-do list count?
Like so many in this life...ok everyone...I've experienced death, hurt, let downs, trials, & tribulations. I've felt the lowest of lows & the highest of highs. I've made it through. And not because I've had super powers to get over these by myself - because God has brought me through. You see, I'll be honest, my faith in God hasn't always been this - & "this" isn't where I want it to be either. I want a closer relationship. I yearn to spend more time with him, I yearn to please him, I yearn to make my Heavenly Father - and my earthly father - who's with God now - proud of me. But then Satan let's the everyday life consume us. This everyday life consumes me so much at times that I push away what matters most to complete tiny, not important tasks. Tasks that seem big - but in the bigger picture - mean nothing.
So...I've said all of this to say...this blog is for my thoughts. It's for my ACP to see how much I love her, how proud of her we are, and for her one day to see that she is our EVERYTHING!
This blog will probably be unorganized - and despite my physical desire to organize everything & only be able to function in that - my brain is totally the opposite! Ha!
Each of our jobs on Earth is to show & let God live through us. And so, in my many conversations with God, he has always drawn me back to this blog idea - and so I will listen. I will listen, I will write, and if one person becomes closer to God because of this...then my purpose on Earth has been fulfilled. That is our job, as children of God.
I am my ACP's mommy, a wife, a teacher, a daughter, a sister, a friend, & in all my spare time (said in the most sarcastic way), I'm a photographer....and I am way beyond blessed to wear each one of those hats!
So...here it is! The beginning of what I pray will be an amazing journey!
XOXO,
Jessica
P.S. - HUGE - well beyond HUGE- thanks to my sweet friend Madaline - over at Dear Madaline Designs for hooking this awesome blog design up!! God has a funny way of bringing people together & that girl makes my heart happy & she just so happens to be my future neighbor!!
*I am sure there is an amazing blog post about that in the future! ;)
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